Every now and then I remember I have this blog. I remember a time when I truly needed it. I needed the space to think and write, and learn how powerful that time was for me. I also remember that most of it was sad, lonely, and drenched with feelings of being lost.

At my 30th birthday dinner, my friend asked me if I knew then what I know now, would I still have gotten married? Would I use the power of hindsight to ward off the pain from my younger self, if possible? The truth is, I told her, no I wouldn't. My amazing best friend Robyn was sitting beside her, and I thought I saw the small glimmer of a tear in her eye and I knew she agreed. I without a doubt wouldn't be the person I am today without that experience, and frankly, I really really like this person. :)

Without darkness, we cannot appreciate the light. Without struggle, we cannot taste the sweetness of victory and success. Without that great pain, I am unsure that I would be so overwhelmed with happiness and clarity now. So many great things were born from my divorce; it's impossible to forget it, disregard it, or wish it away. I would be wishing away myself.

I am fortunate to have reached my other side, I am through. I am not done growing or learning, but I have made it to the other side of my greatest struggle to date. My motto, "The only way out is through" was my guiding light. My family, friends, therapist were my life jacket, keeping me afloat. Thank you. Thank you for the time and energy you gave me, the advice you lent me, the shoulder to sob on, the coffee dates, the house calls, the support, all of it. There really are no words.

I am unsure of where I will go with this blog from here on out. I still feel called to write, but my story is very different now. It will never go away though. No, I will let Squarespace take $12 out of my checking account forever to let my story live out here because I won't hide it or ever forget it. Perhaps one day it may help someone else out. I can only hope that it may after all of the great kindness and love you all have shown me.

Thank you again and again and again.

WTF is next?